Lost To Him by fallenwitch

Rating: R
Genres: Angst, Romance
Relationships: Draco & Ginny
Book: Draco & Ginny, Books 1 - 5
Published: 28/09/2005
Last Updated: 29/09/2005
Status: Completed

Completed! Draco pursues Ginny, hoping to bring her back into his life again after tragedy
strikes. A post fic Psych 101 class is available for those so inclined.




1. Ever The Intruder
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AN: While struggling with some technical difficulties on my fic, Breaking His Heart, I decided
to post this little fic. This is the first part of a two part fic. I hope readers will give it a
whirl and let me know what they think.

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**Chapter 1**

**Ever The Intruder**

“Gin?”

He looked around the corner and into the small living room. Empty. He walked quietly down the
hall, boots echoing against the wooden floor. Turning sharply, he glanced into the kitchen. There
were signs of life in here, stacks of dirty dishes and cups, an empty bottle of Firewhiskey. With
several waves of his wand, the dishes were gone, the countertop clean. No signs of life remained.
He opened her Muggle refrigerator and noted a bottle of orange juice and several boxes of Chinese
take-out.

“Ginny? Honey, it's me.”

He continued to make his way around her small flat. The door next to the kitchen opened onto a
large sunlit room with tall windows. There was a huge half painted canvas standing on an easel.
Paint tubes, brushes, and stained rags were thrown about. Leaning against the walls, on all four
sides, were dozens of pictures, all in various states of completion. The air held the pungent odor
of oil paints and thinner. He glanced down and saw his eyes, those magnificent silver greys,
staring up at him from a half-hidden painting. He turned and closed the door.

His hand was curled into a half fist as he knocked gently on her bedroom door. “Gin?” He waited
an appropriate amount of time before knocking again. No answer. The door swung silently open, his
hand on the knob. It was completely dark. The shades were drawn, the curtains closed. He reversed
the nighttime spell, and small shafts of sunlight began to stream into her room, peeking around the
cracks in the shades and the sides of the curtains.

As he looked over at the huge bed in the middle of the room, he saw a small lump completely
enmeshed in a snarl of sheets and bedcovers. He sighed, walked over to her, and pulled the covers
off of her head. He was met with a tangle of crimson silk and a scowl. She tried to pull the covers
back over her head, but he held them firm.

Opening her eyes a crack, she stared sleepily up at him before closing them again and turning
over.

“Ginny,” he said softly. “I just stopped by to see how you're doing. I hadn't heard from
you in awhile.”

She mumbled something incoherent. He turned her half over, facing him. Without opening her eyes,
she spoke again. “What the hell are you doing here so early in the morning?” He stroked her
hair.

“It's four o'clock in the afternoon.”

Her eyes fluttered open at this. Then she lay there staring at him, ever the intruder.

“I thought you might want some dinner or maybe a little company.”

He was no longer looking at her but staring down at the folds in her blankets, all twisted and
tangled at odd angles with her wrinkled sheets.

“I've already eaten.”

She rolled over, dismissing him. He sat there, on the edge of her bed, looking at her silken
tresses, her creamy white shoulders dusted with the lightest hint of cinnamon freckles.

“Gin, don't do this.”

Silence.

He leaned over, wrapped his arm around her, and kissed her cheek. “I love you.”

Her senses were suddenly assaulted by his cool touch, his hot breath against her neck, and his
familiar scent searing her lungs. This was followed by the crack of his Disapparation as his side
of the bed lightened. She rolled over onto her back, pulled the covers up to her neck, and closed
her eyes again.

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Six months later, he stood outside her door and rang her Muggle doorbell. Several minutes later,
she opened the door and stood aside for him to enter.

“Hullo, Gin,” he said, stepping past her into the small living room. She was wearing a simple
black dress that fell in a flurry just below her knees. Her red silk was swept up into a large
silver clasp on one side. She picked up her black silk robe and cloak.

“You look beautiful, Ginny,” he said quietly, watching her intently. She looked up, and her eyes
met his for a moment before turning away. He helped her with her robe and her cloak before putting
on his own, over his Muggle trousers and shirt.

“There's a new place in Diagon Alley. I thought you might like to try it.” He looked at her
tentatively. “May I?” She nodded. He gathered her into his arms, holding her closely for the first
time in many months. His body ached to really hold her, to lose himself completely in her scent,
her fire, her desire. He steadied himself. With a wave of his wand and a crack, they Disapparated
together.

As soon as their feet hit the pavement, flashes of light and shouting accosted them. Draco threw
his arm protectively around Ginny, attempting to shield her from the throngs of reporters barking
questions and flashing cameras. He felt her stiffen and grip his waist with an iron lock. He tried
to push forward to the restaurant but was trapped by the crowd. Silently cursing himself, he took
out his wand and swiftly Disapparated them to the Manor.

When his feet hit the floor, Draco loosened his grip on Ginny and leaned down to look at her
face. She unexpectedly grabbed him around the waist with both arms and buried her face in his
chest. He held her close, rubbing her back and stoking her hair.

“I'm so sorry, Ginny,” he murmured over and over. She stood there, leaning against him, and
he stood there, disbelieving that she was allowing him to comfort her. She, who had been pushing
him away for the past twelve months, was now clinging desperately to him. He held her for as long a
time as she would allow, soaking in her tears, her pain, and her wonderful scent.

What the hell had he been thinking? Damn that restaurant owner, who had obviously alerted the
press. Draco was seething, but he was mostly furious with himself for not being more careful. He
was out and about every day and didn't really think about it, but Ginny had not been out in
over a year.

When she finally pulled away, eyes puffy and filled with tears, he gently suggested they eat at
the Manor. She nodded in agreement.

“Let's eat upstairs, shall we Gin?”

She took the hand he offered, leading her slowly up the grand spiral staircase to their suite of
rooms. When he opened the door to their bedroom, she stepped in gingerly, looking around, eyes wide
and dark.

It was odd to be back within the confines of these particular four walls, she thought, looking
around at all the elegant furnishings and fabrics and tapestries. She wrapped her hand around the
post of their bed. She had forgotten how rich the greens, the silvers, and the blacks were. A thin
finger ran gracefully down the complex pattern of the grain in the mahogany wood.

He watched her silently walking around their bedroom; touching and looking, opening a drawer,
pulling down a book, glancing out the window. It was odd to see her here again, almost a stranger
to this intimate setting.

She peered inside his closet and saw rows and rows of his fine clothes. Her hand reached out and
touched one of his many cloaks, the elegant black woolen one she had given him for their first
anniversary. She had forgotten about the cloak until she saw it. They had reservations for dinner
and a play that night but never made it out their bedroom door. A half smile fell upon her face,
the first smile of any kind to grace her face in over a year.

The scene, which echoed painfully with its familiarity, had shaken loose various sticky cobwebs
from some long hidden trap in her mind. It was a place where only banished and unwanted memories
resided. She had chased them from her active mind months ago. They fled in terror to this dark,
web-infested corner of her mind, biding their time, waiting patiently for her to awaken them again.
It was this unexpected burst which flooded her face with that weak smile. But this smile was hidden
from him now, buried in his closet, and lost to him.

Many things were lost to him now. His Ginny, his beautiful winsome Ginny was lost to him. He
stood there, not knowing if she would ever truly come back to him or not, but he belong to her now.
For him, there was no other. There would never be another for him like her. So he waited and
carried on, hoping she would be able to find her way back to him, because he could never help her
find her way home. Only she could do that. It wasn't that he didn't love her enough or
provide for her or even protect her. It had to do with things very different from all that. He
watched her poking her fingers very carefully, very gingerly into the fabric that was their life
together, hoping its web would entangle and ensnare her once again to become his.

Ginny sat on the side of their bed, looking at the small table beside it. She saw those
magnificent silver greys looking back at her, so vibrant and full of life. He watched her carefully
as she picked up the picture, smiling and waving back at her. She was mesmerized by that smile, by
those uniquely platinum blond locks, and by that look in his eyes, staring out at her. He held her
gaze, those glorious eyes in the picture, and she returned their gaze with such an undisguised
longing that it took his breath away. She sat, staring at the picture for many long minutes, unable
to tear her gaze away from his face. Then she closed her eyes, held his picture to her chest, and
laid down.

“Ginny?” He quested cautiously as he went to her side.

She shook her head and looked up at him for a moment before closing her eyes. In an instant, she
was lost to him all over again. He hesitantly slipped away from her side and walked noiselessly to
their bedroom door. As he began to swing the door closed, he heard a soft voice.

“Draco?” He stopped, holding his breath.

“I'm here, Gin.”

He saw her raise a fragile arm, and he went to her. She took his hand and pulled him down onto
the bed beside her. He sat, facing her. She crawled into his lap, her arms around his waist. He
gently stroked her hair.

As he watched her, his battered heart let out an anguished, piercing cry. She was so thin now,
fragile, and tenuously holding on to what remained of her life force on this earth. Gone was his
voluptuous beauty with her generous hips and curves, her childlike innocence torn away and faded.
What he held in his arms was but a shadow of what he had fallen in love with, but he would love her
until the day she passed from this side of the veil to the other side, a place where she would be
beyond his touch and his aching love. If it were possible, he would love her then, still, and
follow her into whatever eternity awaited them, together.

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AN: Remember this is the first part of a two-part fic. This is not the end, yet. Reviews are
appreciated. Thanks!

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2. Lost In Her
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**WARNING:** The second Author's Note at the end of this chapter contains information
about Ginny and Draco's state of mind. It is a psychological deconstruction of the fic, not
just a clarifying comment or two. If this type of nonsense interferes with your enjoyment of the
fic, I recommend skiving off!

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**Chapter 2**

**Lost In Her**

Three months later, she Apparated into his office late one evening. He was still at work, as
always, keeping busy, moving them forward in whatever way he could, filling his mind with so much
of the mundane that there was no room for anything else. He sat at his large desk, overflowing with
stacks of files, rolls of parchment, and quills. He never noticed her silent entry into his
world.

"Draco?"

He startled at the sound of another's voice. His head shot up. She was standing in the
doorway, dressed in a simple set of black robes and black boots with her red silk hanging in a
loose swirl about her face. Her eyes were dark and wide, staring at him.

"Ginny?" He stood quickly and rushed to her, silver wide with mild alarm. "Is
everything okay?" It had been almost fifteen months since she had come to his office or left
her home by magical means. He was surprised she hadn't splinched herself.

She nodded and saw the tension roll off his face and shoulders. He attempted to lead her into
his office, into a comfortable chair. She shook her head. Instead, she leaned against the
doorframe. Her eyes fell to the floor and stayed there.

"I want to come home,” she whispered so softly that he had to lean forward to hear her.

"Yes, of course."

"Now, Draco. I want to come home, now." She heard his robes rustling and looked up. He
was closing files, shuffling parchment, and moving swiftly about his desk.

"Just let me get my cloak, Gin."

"No, don't leave. I'm fine. I'll be at home when you're finished. Don't
rush." He looked up in time to see her vanish, that familiar wood in her hand. He threw on his
cloak, gathered the scattered rolls of parchment and dumped them into a pile. Not bothering to
close up his office in his usual orderly fashion, he simply grabbed his wand and, with a crack,
Disapparated home.

He took the stairs two and three at a time, rushing to their suite of rooms on the second floor.
When he arrived outside the closed wooden doors, he stopped to compose himself, straightening his
hair and his robes. He took a deep breath before casually strolling in. The room was empty. There
was no sign of her anywhere. He ran to her closet, throwing open the door. Empty. He checked the
study, the library, their sitting room, and their breakfasting area. Empty. Empty. Empty.
Empty.

Stunned, he slumped into the large chair by the fireplace, heart pounding, face flushed. He sat
there for some minutes at a loss. Was she a vision he created out of his need for her, rather than
her need of him?

The bathroom door swung open.

When he turned around, she stole his worry away with one beautiful stroke. There she was,
dressed in a modest white cotton nightgown, absent-mindedly brushing her silky crimson tresses as
she walked into the room. If she was a vision, he decided, then he was a goddamn miraculous Seer,
and he would definitely be staying put for the night. She gracefully strolled up to him, leaned
down, and kissed his forehead before heading toward their bed.

When he slid into bed beside her sometime later, he hesitated before slipping his arms around
her slight frame. He pulled her to him and felt her relax in his arms. Sighing gratefully, he
thanked every known deity for bringing her back to him safely, for whatever measure of time it
lasted. Soon her breathing was slow and regular, filled with sleep. He watched her, dreaming in his
arms, for the first time in almost a year and a half.

When he awoke, she was gone. He sat bolt upright and scanned their bedroom. Then his lean frame
fell back against the bed again. He rolled over to where she lay the night before. The sheets were
cold but still held a touch of her sweet lingering fragrance. He racked a tired hand through his
tousled platinum locks and headed for the bathroom.

Ginny stood on the balcony looking out onto the famed Malfoy gardens, her white nightgown
billowing in the chilly morning wind. It was a glorious sunny morning with skies bluer than the
richest ocean.

Now what? There was no comfort for her anywhere. Every time she looked into his eyes, she saw
him, heard his laughter, felt his presence. Was there no respite? Was there no sanctuary? She
already knew there was no justice or fairness in the world.

Without him, there was nothing left for her on this earth. Where was he? Why had they taken him
to a place where she could not follow? She had willed herself to die, to gloriously sink six feet
under into that quiet netherworld where no cannons roared, where only the beautiful silence of the
unknown penetrated. It was simply not her time. She was a prisoner trapped in a life she no longer
desired. No human touch could breach the walls of her self-imposed quarantine, where she lay
unreachable and unable to reach out.

The only thing she could hear was the whispering of his love for her. The only thing she could
feel was his heart reaching out for hers. It was his crazy, persistent love for her which sent her
crawling and scrapping up those merciless, dank tunnel walls towards the faintest hope of light,
however misguided that might be. She was terrified, unsure if his love could penetrate the fortress
of insanity around her. She was standing on that balcony, staring out into the brilliant morning
sun, when he found her.

"Ginny,” he said with relief in his voice. She turned at the sound, red silk swirling in
the morning breeze, face flush with the cool breeze. She smiled weakly before turning around
again.

She was so ethereal now that she resembled spirit more than human. He went to her and wrapped
his arms around her waist, burying his face in the nape of her neck, pulling her close.

"You're freezing,” he admonished lightly, looking down. She wore no shoes or slippers
of any kind. He took off his robes and threw them around her before quickly leading her back inside
and closing the balcony doors.

When he left her, bundled in multiple blankets in front of the fire, she was quietly sipping a
large cup of tea, the firelight throwing specks of amber into her wide brown eyes.

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A month later, he came home late. He had missed dinner and many hours after that working on
several important projects and proposals. He crept up the stairs and slipped noiselessly into their
bedroom, knowing she had gone to bed hours before.

She heard his quiet footsteps on the staircase and the door swinging open. He peered around the
corner. She caught the surprise and delight on his face when he saw her. It pleased her that she
was still able to give him some small amount of joy. She stretched and yawned and walked over to
greet him, frowning at what she saw. He was obviously exhausted. His beautiful silver eyes were
worn, his shoulders sagging, and his usually meticulous robes were wrinkled.

"You're tired,” she whispered, cradling his face in her hands, studying him for the
first time in months. He smiled and shook his head as he reached down to give her a light kiss on
the cheek.

"Just a long day, that's all." She nodded before releasing him, watching him head
toward the bathroom.

When he returned, freshly showered and clad in his usual pair of green pajama bottoms, she was
awake and watching him.

"Bed?” he asked, holding out a hand to his wife. She nodded and slipped her hand into his.
They crossed the length of the room together. He pulled down the sheets for her, then turned to go
around to his side of the bed. Before he could take another step, she had her hand on his arm,
staying him. He automatically turned to her. "Need something, Gin?"

She nodded before wrapping her arms around his neck and pulling his lips, ever so slowly, down
onto hers. With the lightest touch imaginable, she insistently rubbed her lips against his, softly
tickling him with her tongue. She pressed the length of her body firmly against him and heard the
catch in his breath. He was holding back, unsure of what she was asking of him. It had been so
long, she didn't know how to ask. Pressing her lips hungrily into his, she pulled his
unsuspecting body flush against hers, waiting impatiently for an answer.

When he invited her in, she was assaulted by the wonder of him; the scent of his freshly washed
body drenched her, the feel of his wet hair scorched her. Her body ached for his cool touch on her
skin, his hot breath against her neck, and his searing kisses on her wanton lips. He was undeniably
glorious. How could she have been so blind to his beauty? How could she have discarded him so
carelessly? Where had this overwhelming, burning love for her Slytherin been hiding? It was
unbelievable to her that he was still here with her, like this, again.

His hands were tentative on her, as he let her lead. She reassuringly pulled him closer. He was
treating her like a broken china doll, and she couldn't blame him. She was broken, shattered
beyond belief, and desperate for him in her tenuous state. He was the only thing left which made
any sense to her. She took his right hand and placed it firmly on her left breast. His eyes widened
in surprise at the lack of clothing underneath her bathrobe. Then she yanked him forcefully on top
of her as they fell onto the bed.

He looked down at her, awash in red silk and staring back at him. Their eyes locked. She was
reaching out for him, drawing him into her world, and he found himself painfully lost in her, in a
way he had almost forgotten. But his body remembered hers well, the familiarity of her intoxicating
scent, the seductive silky soft skin against his, and her burning desire igniting his. She was
moaning and arching her slight frame towards his. He reached for her and touched her and held her
in ways so long lost, they were new to him again. It was a delight so intense he almost cried out.
This was his Ginny, the passionate woman he had fallen in love with, the witch of his desires, whom
he could not believe was making an appearance once again in their marriage after being absent for
so long.

He couldn't stop to think or make sense of the scene because she was calling to him, in the
way that she always called to him, and he went to her with excruciating abandon. Cradling his long
lost beloved in his arms, he set a slow and tender pace that grew increasingly insistent. He
watched her every movement, her every reaction, right up until the moment he closed his eyes,
overwhelmed. When they collapsed upon each other, many minutes later, they were both spent and
oddly warm.

She held him closely, not wanting the moment to slip away, not wanting him to move. Eventually
she relented and released the lock her legs had around his waist. His weight shifted off of her and
onto his side.

He looked down at her, amazed at the life he saw in her eyes, a small fire he had not glimpsed
in too many months. His heart was full of hope at the sight of her like this.

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Six months later, Ginny Malfoy was back at Madam Malkin's refitting her robes. She had
finally regained sufficient weight to fit back into most of her previous clothes, getting the
remainder altered to her new, seemingly smaller size. She stopped by Flourish and Blotts and a few
other stores on the way to Draco's office.

"Draco?"

"Be right with you, Gin,” he yelled as she plopped down on the chair just outside his
office, thumbing through the latest edition of Witch Weekly. Oh, she had her morning edition of The
Daily Prophet tucked away for later but first things first. While she was waiting, she chatted a
bit with his secretary and listened to the WWN on the contraption Draco had purchased for her last
month. She couldn't say she cared for it much, but she wanted to please him, and so she carried
it around for odd moments like now. Minutes later, she felt a kiss on her cheek and looked up.
Draco was holding out his hand. She quickly packed away her WWN contraption and stepped out of his
office with him.

In the middle of Diagon Alley, he pulled her close and wrapped his arms around her for all of
the wizarding world to behold. He buried his face in the nape of her neck, soaking in the glory of
her. "I love you, Ginny." He could hear her smiling as she kissed his neck and drew him
closer. When he released her from his embrace, he slid his arm around her waist, and they walked
down the alleyway to lunch.

"Why don't you order something for me?" He nodded at his wife's suggestion.
Lazy witch, never wanted to be bothered to look at a menu for more than five seconds. As he was
giving the menu a cursory glance, he heard her shout and looked up.

"Harry! Oh my gosh, how are you?" She was up and across the courtyard faster than a
Golden Snitch. He rose and slowly made his way after her. He stopped midway. Potter had his
five-year-old son in hand, and Ginny was on her knees talking to the boy, who was the spitting
image of his father, right down to his remarkable green eyes.

"Potter,” he said warmly, shaking the other wizard's hand.

"Malfoy." Harry returned before turning his gaze on Ginny talking to the boy.
"Ginny looks great."

"She's come a long way." The boy was holding a child's version of the Golden
Snitch, much larger, infinitely slower. Soon he was chasing it with Ginny in tow, laughing and
yelling, and Draco found himself mesmerized by the sight. "A Seeker in training,
Potter?"

"Yeah, well, you know how it is." Harry stopped and added. "He sees me play and
wants to play as well."

"Looks like he'll be moving up to the real thing soon." Harry said nothing, just
nodded silently.

"James!" he shouted some minutes later. "We've got to get going. We're
late as it is. Say good-bye to Aunt Ginny." The boy took the Snitch out of Ginny's hands
and gave her a big hug as he ran back to Potter's side. Ginny rushed to Harry and gave him a
hug.

"He's gorgeous, Harry. Come by soon and bring him for a visit, will you?"

"Of course. We'll floo you soon." Turning, he added, "Malfoy."

"Potter. Good-bye James."

"Bye."

Draco watched Ginny's eyes follow the pair across the street and into the crowds before
settling back at their table. He said nothing and kept his eyes on the menu while she sat, staring
at the crowds.

"He looks just like Harry. Don't you think?" she mused.

"Just."

"Oh Draco, stop that." He laughed at this.

"I was only joking, Gin. Yes, James looks like a mini-Potter. Unfortunately, he'll
probably make a hell of a Seeker one day as well." He stopped and turned his infernal Malfoy
stare on her. "Happy?" She nodded.

"Do you ever think about it?" she queried.

"Of course I do."

"How do you know when it's time?" He put down the menu and looked at her with
those magnificent silver grey eyes that she loved so much.

"I don't know." She was watching him, those luminous pools of wavering brown
focused on his every movement, his every breath. An unsuspecting wizard could drown in those
things, he thought vaguely, returning her stare.

"I think I know." He looked at her, surprised. She pulled out a small glass vial and
handed it to him. He turned over the familiar vial in his elegant hands.

"We're pregnant?" Those words slipped out of his disbelieving mouth.

"Yes, we're pregnant." She ran a hand, reassuringly, over the side of his face,
her eyes searching his. "She's due in seven months so that should give you plenty of time
to get yourself ready. Don't you think?" His wife was staring at him, waiting for some
kind of sign from the Slytherin.

A moment later, he had her firmly in his arms, comforting her with his touch. "God, Ginny.
Are you sure?" He felt her nod against his chest. As the blood rushed back into his head and
his breathing returned, he closed his eyes and hung onto his wife, afraid to move for fear his
world would implode on him again. He was damn near paralyzed, unsure of what to say or do next.
Sensing his discomfort, she spoke.

"It's okay, Draco. Really. I want to do this if you do." As the color began to
return to his fragile world, he looked down at his wife, now staring up at him, concerned. He
smiled, his hand on her face.

"It's all I want, Ginny." She looked at him. Her eyes closed as he drew her to him
again, cradling his wife and his unborn daughter to him with the greatest of care, reveling in the
thought of their love creating life, again.

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**Serpens William Malfoy**

**Cherished Son**

**2002-2007**

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Finis

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AN1: Thanks for hanging in there to the end. Any reviews are appreciated.

AN2: Psych 101 in session. This was a simple fic about the process of loss and grief and moving
on. The death of a child is the most devastating and life changing event in the life of any parent
unfortunate enough to experience such a loss. We meet Ginny in the midst of a Complicated
Bereavement. Complicated (not as in complex) because of the episode of Major Depression she is
experiencing in addition to her grief. Bereavement and Major Depression are close cousins with many
overlapping signs and symptoms; however, it is the depth, duration, and degree of disruption of
Ginny's functioning (The poor witch can't even get out of bed or tolerate living with her
husband in the home they shared with their son.) that tips the scale in favor of a Major
Depression.

Classic symptoms of Major Depression displayed in this fic include: anhedonia (loss of pleasure
in life - even her beautiful Slytherin means little), loss of appetite and weight, hypersomnia
(sleeping too damn much), cognitive dysfunction (difficulty concentrating, inability to make simple
decisions), social isolation (a bottle of Firewhiskey does not count as a friend), and a
preoccupation with death (above and beyond wanting a reunion with her son).

What about Draco? (No, his beauty does not confer immunity.) Every grieving process is an
individual journey. Draco's method of grieving is as valid as Ginny's. He is driven by
guilt and fear in addition to loss. Immersing himself in work gives him some semblance of control
and the illusion of moving forward. It also affords him a reprieve from his pain, distracting his
heart and his mind. Will he fail Ginny as he failed their son? Will she die as well? Here he is
truly helpless. There is nothing he can do other than love her, watch over her, and hope she
doesn't self-destruct. Fortunately, he has enough ego strength to stand by and let her do what
she needs to do without personalizing it in a destructive manner. (I wouldn't write my Draco
any other way.)

Many couples do not survive the death of a child. The loss of an only child carries a special
burden. Because grief is such an individual endeavor, it can lead to misunderstanding and
alienation when parents of a lost child grieve in markedly different ways. Ginny and Draco do not
fall into this trap, despite their differences, because I am writing this fic and would not allow
them such folly. In reconstructing her life, Ginny is drawn back to what created its foundation
before her son was born, her love for the Slytherin and his love for her. When she is able to
reconstruct her life, she begins to move forward, although forever changed.

I always worry that deconstructing a fic in such clinical terms takes away from the reading
experience. My fics tend to revolve around psychological issues because life is one big
psychological bath to my way of thinking. I hope this odd post-chapter ride was of interest. Class
dismissed.

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